Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Dear Scales, Please Show Me the Weight Loss!!!!

Yup, it is totally devastating working your buns off only to see that they really haven't gone anywhere. That's how I am feeling right now. Most people reach a plateau after 20 lbs and I have hit mine at 6.5 lbs! I work out 5 days a week varying between cardio, like the elliptical and circuit training. I am eating the dreaded breakfast, a bigger lunch, and a light supper. Pop and my favorite sweet-tea has been tossed aside for water, Crystal Light, and some diet pop. I have lost an inch in my calves, half inch in my waist, and I see muscular definition coming alive in my arms. Yet, I step on that scale it has gone nowhere! When you want so badly to lose 30-40 lbs, not seeing that scale change really makes this journey seem so harrowing and depressing.

I have grown to notice that I am not creating enough muscle confusion that is needed to spring weight-loss into overdrive. I really need to devise a plan that will create the proper workout to achieve the ultimate fat burning and muscle building to reach my goal weight. This will require research and organization. I walk in the gym every morning at 6 AM attacking it without a plan of attack. This does not work in war, nor does it work in the gym-life, we must make a workout plan. We need to know the sequencing of muscle groups and know what will lead us to the greatest results.

My aim over the next couple of weeks is to devise this plan and execute it. Then I will report the results with you all. If you have any ideas or know links for research feel free to share in the comment box. I want nothing more than to report back that the scales are finally showing the weight loss. I hope life is treating you all well and that your personal journeys are leading where you want to go. Best Wishes and God Bless!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The Look at Her and Look at Me Complex

I went to the gym for my usual early morning workout and took my place in my lil 30 minute circuit training area..After 15 minutes of grunting (internally)and sweating in every area possible, in walked a skinny girl; I mean skinny-b*t*h-skinny...If you are an overweight woman you know what I mean. Many of us "thick b*t*hes" when put in a situation where someone many pounds smaller than us is placed in comparison to us, we automatically refer to them as "the skinny b*t*h" Inappropriate? Why yes it is, however, many women of the thinner-nature will also refer to us thick-nature gals as "fat b*t*h", so I am guessing the playing field is pretty level at this point. As I drove home from work today I was milling this over in my head. I had told this very story to co-workers, using the very words that I used above...and now I am wondering why this is a necessary action.
Well, so far the best I have come up with is this little theory. I think overweight women call the skinny women b*t*hes because we want so bad to be them and it can be so hard to see that we can. That we look at them and think it has to be easy and so nice to eat what you want and not look like me. We do not know if they at home working out non-stop or eating 500 calories to be that way. Is it great genes? Maybe, or it could be that they have found what works for them or that they struggle everyday to hang on to their bodies. I think when skinny women call overweight people names that they do this out of fear. Out of a fear that they could no longer be the size four and be like me and wear a size 14 someday. I think overweight people are the reminder that size does fluctuate and that they could one day be overweight too. They look at fat people and think "man all they do is eat all day, sit on the couch, and don't care about their appearances". What they don't know is many of us go to the gym every single day, eat very little, and stare in the mirror while only wearing bras and panties crying over who is looking back at them. The majority of us overweight people just want to look normal, to fit in, and feel desired. When we see ourselves and are disgusted, then we only assume that others are too.
I guess when it is all said and done, we really need to stop looking at others trying to see a reflection of ourselves. The mirror only reflects you at that moment, you as you are. Whether we appreciate the person looking back, it is still you. Overweight women should not size themselves up with smaller women. We shouldn't compare our arms and our thighs to each other. Their body isn't ours, we are each made individually and the mold was immediately broken. Skinny girls need not look at overweight people and fear being us, there is nothing to fear, because being overweight isn't the end of life but a journey in life. A journey that can be traveled and learned from. Being overweight is not a horrible thing, especially if you are healthy and are comfortable with who you are and how your clothes fit. When we as women can stop comparing ourselves to others or having expectations of how others should look, we will all find a new peace and comfort in who we are as individuals. We are all beautiful and no matter our size there is someone to love us and desire us for who we are. Best Wishes and God Bless